What doesn't kill you makes you stronger!!

This was my song last year, It seemed to always play when I had to go do something where I needed to be strong. When I went to Safe Harbor for the first time it played, When I went to court for the Protection Order it was playing. It gave me strength, and as I sat and listened to the words more and more I realized it was a song about my life, When she says 

You know the bed feels warmer
Sleeping here alone

I must admit I finally felt safe to sleep at night because I knew for the first time I wouldn't be raped by my own husband. Wow saying that for the world to hear is strange, its almost like a weight has lifted off my shoulders. The truth is coming out, and I have so much more to say about it. Today is not the day, I have to get more comfortable to talk about the things he has done. 

Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken-hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking about me
You know in the end the day you left was just my beginning
In the end...

I am finally thinking about me, this is my beginning my time to shine, my time to do what I want when I want with out someone telling me what I can and cant do! But I must admit, I'm still afraid, afraid to do what i want when I want. I know he is out there still watching my every move. I still have my guard up last time I let it down one of my children slammed the bedroom door and I just knew he was here, because that's something he used to do. I just stood there paralyzed with fear, once I knew he really wasn't here I broke down and cried. I know it will take time for the fear to go away, and I know once that happens, I will be re leaved and happy once more. I just want to thank some good friends that let me vent and understand what it is I'm going through, You all know who you are.. I love you and I am so very thankful you all are in my life.