Triggers...

Saturday, March 2, 2013

So the other night after work I was talking to a special person when a comment was made that set off a trigger from something my ex used to do. I could honestly feel my self going back in to my shell and hiding my feeling, I just sat there and stared out the car window, while this person rubbed my knee and told me everything was going to be OK, that I had them now and they would never do anything like that to ever hurt me. They went on to say they were mad that someone would treat someone so kind and caring as I am. It was nice to hear those kind words because I never heard them before. It sucks that any little comment, smell or sound can set off a trigger that makes you think you are right back in the situation you tried so hard to forget about. I know it will be awhile before I will forget about it completely, but then again I may never forget. Life throws us curve balls to see how we can handle the stress, I was glad I didn't break down and cry and I had someone there that cares about me to help me through it.