Weekends are Lonely..

Friday, February 22, 2013

Since I have been separated and lost my job the weekends for me have been so lonely. No one comes to visit me and everyone else seems to be out enjoying life. I don't know why it bothers me so much because he was never home on the weekends so it wasn't like we did anything, and when we did we always fought. So why does it bother me now? I can remember a weekend very clear that my daughter was on the special needs cheer squad and had a huge national championship 2 hours away. We were so excited for it, that we went down and stayed the night because it was a 2 night event. My mom and dad went with me so I wouldn't be alone with all the kids, He stayed behind because he said he has to work. Little did I know he took the weekend off, so instead of coming down to see his daughter cheer and get 2nd place in the  nationals, he sat here at home. This was a huge event because my daughter doesn't get to be included in to to much with her being disabled,I sat there and cheered her on like any proud mother would do. It got late on Sunday when my mom and dad decided to take my other 2 back home so they could go to bed because they still had school the next day. My mother called up my ex and explained to him that the kids were coming home and they were going to drop them off early so they could get some sleep, when he responded with No you keep those fu*cking kids. I was floored, really and you call your self a father, who says that about their kids? I would have been more than happy to take them back so they could have gotten some sleep. What was he doing that was so important that he couldn't watch the kids while they slept? It was after 11pm before I finally got to leave to make the trip back home, you would think 2 hours wasn't a long drive  but when you have been up all day and the excitement was wearing off you get a bit sleepy driving by your self. So here I'm driving by my self, having to stop an extra 45 mins out of my way to pick up my other two who were already asleep on the couch at my parents house. Come home and carry them one by one in to the house because he still wouldn't help. Needless to say I was mad and tired, not a good combination to be, esp when you have someone yelling at you about why he didn't want to keep the kids. Supposedly he was cleaning, really, cleaning..Please explain to me why you couldn't watch them because umm HELLO I clean and watch the kids every day what makes you so different? This was just one of the many times he didn't want anything to do with the children, I cant remember any time he did anything with them, yet tells the courts he is the better parent to raise them. I will fight every single day to make sure that does not happen.