Cant Catch a Break...

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

So I was so excited to be going back to work, only to work for a week and be fired!! Yep you read that right, here is what happened.. So the night I got back to work everyone was excited to see me, I didnt know I was so missed, I went back to through some training, and then off to a refresher course in PIT class so I would be able to drive the forklifts again. Did all that, got my truck and road around pulling pallets for the night, shift was over and I went to park my truck when I came across a guy who pulls my battery plug  making my truck stop as I was driving, no big deal I let it slide that time, but 2 days later he did it again while I was driving making my PC come to a complete stop, this time it pissed me off, so I told the guy who I happen to be seeing, who happens to be my boss, on break that if he does it again I was going to punch him in the face. He said he would handle it so after we got back from break our main boss came to me and asked me what was going on so I told him. Well they talked to this other guy too and he said I have been doing it to him since I came back, which is a LIE!! I was so mad that night, we both ended up getting wrote up for hours playing even though I did nothing. My "boss" was mad well Thursday the Safety guy came to us wanting a statement so I gave one, he gave one and a witness that saw him do it gave one. And wouldn't you know when I went to work on Monday I worked for like an hour when they came to get me to tell me I have been fired because of it. What the hell, I asked them why was I getting fired when I did nothing wrong. He told me they tried to fight for me but it was out of their hands. I was so upset, I sat there and cried and cried, when "my Boss" came out for break and saw me so upset he know what happened and he was pissed, he said him and the main boss was fighting to get me back, and then he hugs me and tells me everything will be ok, I told him I'm sorry he has to see me this way, but I'm at a loss, I have officially cracked. I told him I knew what I wanted to do, I wanted to go home and cut (  being a recovering cutter I haven't done it in a long time) But that night I wanted to so  bad, When he grabs my jacket and tells me to look him in the eyes, so I did , when he goes on to tell me that  he cares deeply for me and he doesn't want me doing anything that would hurt my self, then he told me something I thought I would never hear again,. He said he Loves Me, Me can you believe that, later on that night he said he was wanting to wait until we had some quality time together, but he knew I needed to hear those words from him that night. I never thought I would ever find love again, I sure want looking for it when I went back to work last year, but little did I know it was right in front of me. We took things slow, Started talking in September when I started working, exchanged numbers in January, talked every day since, even when I was laid off, didn't have our first date until February, and didn't say I love you until March, I went up to see him last night for break and just sat there and had one of those cries where you cant catch your breath, been awhile for that since I have learned to bury and hide my emotions I just couldn't help it, everything was going so well and I get knocked down again. I just cant seem to catch a break. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm completely lost....