Its amazing how something so small can make you remember something that you thought you had forgotten, I remember the first time my ex husband ever hit me.
We had just got home and he was mad, so he picked my son up by his feet and went to hit him when I stepped in and took him out of his hands, my ex slapped me across the face so hard my glasses went to the other side of the room. I was in shock, I didn't know what to do. He left the house and I called his mother and she and his father came over, told me how he wasn't raised that way and didn't know what would make him do such a thing. Of course his story was that I hit him and that's why he slapped me. There were little things after that, like throwing a cat on my back as I sat on the floor, or throwing objects at me when I wasn't looking. but yet I stayed, why was a I so stupid to stay, I cant even answer that question correctly, I loved him,I truly did, and I would have done anything for him. I could have left him, I mean I had a job and the place he moved in to was mine, but yet I didn't kick him out, Why?! Im sure we have all asked our self the same question over and over again, and we have yet to come up with a decent answer. I get asked all the time why did I stay, what people don't understand, that's never been through that has no idea what goes on in our head, what power our abuser has over us, its not as easy to leave like some people think it is.
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